Today, I am, s-l-o-w-l-y, coming to grips with moving. With leaving, nowhere:) I am thankful, that so far, we are not selling it. My husband has been unhappy with his job for a long time. Not so much the actual job, it's geographical location, to be more precise. So, out of kindness and mercy, on God's part, he's been handed a good job, back where he'd choose to live. Back in California, back in Ventura county, where I have lived, for altogether 3 years, in two installments. This will be the third installment:)
I am a seasoned "mover", and today, that's not too encouraging. I am too, well aware of the details. There is no bliss of oblivion. However, whispered into my heart, as I was jogging down the worry trail, were the words, "this is going to be so wonderful, you don't have a paradigm for it, nothing in your life has prepared you for this, it will be a wonder to you." It will be like when He gave me the ring, and I just had no paradigm, in my thoughts, or emotions, for the understanding of it. It just was, and it was good.
So, auspiciously, this is off to a rocky start.
But, certainly, it is going to be something, of wonder, when it's all been said and done.
Relax
front porch, early summer
Door to art studio.
it also doubles as a guest cottage:)
from the pond
front yard at the farm
the middle of nowhere
Ahh....Maureen! I must have missed a post or two...you are MOVING? From The Middle of Nowhere??
ReplyDeleteI feel a sense of loss for you...the place which has provoked- sparked!- much creativity in you...triggering that urge to paint, to write, to be....generating...making music....
At the same time, moving is such an adventure. Of course, some adventures fit the description of 'high', whereas others are definitely 'low'. I can see the potential of this move is that of 'low', all the while knowing that feeling in the pit of the stomach that comes when faced with the prospect of something that is not what one hoped for....which fights against the words that have come to you- causing hope to spring up within you for the High Adventure!
I did have hopes of coming through your area and seeing your "Walden" there. Maybe one day it will happen anyway.
In the meantime, we move forward, each of us, on our life's intricate course, seeing the new, remembering the old, and always living in the present- knowing that we cannot live tomorrow today, and cannot keep yesterday any longer than it lasts...
I will pray for your peace, Maureen. I appreciate your life and your insight!
Maureen, you have led so many of us to fall in love with your heart and your little haven. I too, had entertained thoughts of visiting you there! I look forward to hearing and seeing all that you will bring to your next address. Do you sell your paintings? I would love to have one before you move!
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Thankyou for these comments. It certainly is a great idea to have a visit. I love that idea. Anyone live close enough to me, you are invited to come and visit, because as long as I'm here, and as long as we own this place, it is a haven for anyone needing it:)
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