Occupation?

Many times, I've looked on craigslist and in newpapers and various small circulars as well, looking for employment. I've applied several times. Traveled to places, filled out applications. I've spoken with a few of the employers themselves, but mostly have dealt with filling in the blanks and filling out online kinds of "surveys".
I have to confess, I have often ended up in tears. I've come to realize that somewhere inside, part of me believes my worth is degraded by this. It hurts. I don't even know where this blog is going, but hopefully, it will lead to hope.
I know there are many people who are "unemployed". I am one of them, though I work hard, and actually do so many things. I have been a stay home with the kids mom for over 32 years now. That's a long time. A few times in there I have had various jobs. They never paid enough to take the place of me at home. I was a real estate agent once, during a terrible downturn market in California years ago when real estate tanked. It was more of a hardship on my family to wait it out.
I am educated. I graduated from a Bible college, that though it is an excellent school, does not give degrees.
I read avidly, and am very self educated. I should say I'm an avid learner.
I'm a cheerful, innovative, humorous person, that's in good health and is reasonably attractive.
I am a fairly accomplished violinist, as well as an aspiring artist.
I actually liked being a waitress years ago.
I don't want to work alone.
I don't want to do child care, though I am highly skilled.
I don't want to deliver papers, nor walk someones dog.
I have the sales skills of a stone.
I am empathetic.
I am good at prayer.
I am anointed for counseling and the prophetic.
I am skilled in playing with other musicians.
I've decided it's almost a miracle that I can't get hired for anything, and so I've begun to ask God to bless my husband with at least an $8/hour raise. I am 100% sure he'll get a raise before I ever get a job.
I think God likes my company so much, that He keeps me to Himself. That's fine with me, but my husband would like my financial help. God, please give Duane a raise, and pay him more for me.
thanks.
PS. When that prayer gets answered, I'll let everyone know. It will get answered, somehow I know it for sure.